20 facts about me
When I was archiving some photos on Instagram, I came across an old post I posted in 2014- 20 facts about me.
Wow not much has changed since then HAHA. One thing for sure, I have obtained some clarity over some of the facts so at least there’s some growth!
I thought it’d be fun to review and update them. Here goes:
20 facts about me. Why not?
1. Only my dad, really old friends and ex-colleagues call me Syahida. That name is a bit alien to me now
2021: I am working now so I do use Syahida at my workplace. It somehow helps me to draw the line between work and life. Yes, we can be friends with our colleagues but there is still a line. Our colleagues are still colleagues. So, calling me Syahida can sometimes help me to remind myself of that.
2. Always not that hungry, always not that full. That's why I can eat all day long, or not eat at all.
2021: I did a bariatric surgery last year so my eating habits have changed since then. Funnily somehow this statement is still applicable! Haha. I am still not always that hungry, but yeah I feel super full after I eat my meal. I still can snack all day long though. Basically the same as before but with much lesser quantity.
3. I like being fat. Maybe because that's what I know and comfortable with.
2021: I still do, I love it! But I also love being lighter. The aim is to be healthy, let’s try not to care so much about labels kay.
4. Hence I don't think I've ever felt insecure. (Ok once or twice!)
2021: Yup still the same :)
5. I don’t really care about other people's judgements. Or at least I always try not to
2021: Yup still the same :)
6. Cant recall if i was ever bullied at school, except for once cc: @fkrihkm
2021: I dated someone who bullied me, and it took me a long time to realise it. I guess bullies come in different types and forms.
7. I am happy with my life now, at least as happy as i can be! Hehe
2021: Sigh, I am longing for this feeling to come back. I am working on it but it is so hard when I feel lost most of the time. May Allah show me the guidance that I need, and I hope to learn to be happy in whatever situation He puts me in.
8. Not a big fan of animals, sports, poetry and cars.
2021: Yup still the same :)
9. Buy items based on value for money. As long as it can serve its purpose and not ugly.
2021: It changed since I started working. Earning money changed me, I started to care more about luxuries and self rewards. Now, I am happy to say that I no longer long for those things. They are nice to own sure, but they are no longer a big part of my life.
10. Living in Shah Alam and studying in UiTM did not help much when it comes to speaking in English. So I started speaking to myself / daydream in that language instead.
2021: I realised in time that proficiency in English doesn’t matter THAT much. It is important, but it should not be the judge of someone’s intellect (or soul). I have met many people who are charismatic and eloquent, but that can be just someone’s exterior shell. A good reminder to look deeper when getting to know a person.
11. Daydream alot! Way too much!
2021: LOL ADHD trait. I do not know whether it is good, or bad. Whether I should learn to cut, or if it is even possible to do so. I guess it is okay as long as it does not disturb my daily life. Sometimes with the daydreaming I can understand things better or it can spark some creativity within me.
12. I get bored easily. It's only number 12 and I don't feel like doing this anymore. I can do this!
2021: Another ADHD trait.
13. When I REALLY want something, i'll make sure I get it. Somehow I don't think this is healthy
2021: Another ADHD trait.
14. Procrastinate tak sedar diri! Need. To. Get. This. Sorted.
2021: Another ADHD trait. Still not sorted.
15. I used to make long term plans, now I don't anymore. Maybe it's best if i make plans along the way.
2021: I learnt that making zero long term plans made me lost my way as I didnt figure out what I want in life. I used to tell myself carpe diem when making stupid mistakes. Alhamdulillah, I have learnt from it so I started to make them again :) But I keep them open ended and moving so that I don’t feel pressured by it. I have to learn to always adapt.
16. People say that I'm a good listener. I say that I'm good at pretending to listening. The key is to nod and say Oh Yeke at the right time. You're welcome!
2021: People still say the same about me. In fact, I actively learn to be better along the way. And yes, sometimes I still pretend to listen. Another ADHD trait, it’s not horrible though I think I can get this under control.
17. I don't get attached easily. Trust issues, man!
2021: I still talk to the same set of friends until today. HAHA However, I believe the problem is not trust though. I find myself not being able to confide with just anyone if that person does not have good listening skills. Urgh such a waste of my time if that person cannot validate my feelings.
18. I'm doing accounting, but i'm slowest at number crunching.
2021: Can I not comment on this?
19. I'm not that talkative, I only share with people that I'm comfortable with. If not, i'll just do number 16
2021: Yup still the same. Refer # 17
20. I think I ramble a lot, this thing feels like 4 pages long! If you read everything, you must really love me!
2021: Nobody reads this blog HAHA
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Love,